urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:onlybrokenheart laugh a little easier Jennifer, Jenny, Jen 2038-01-19T03:14:07Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:onlybrokenheart:10699 2038-01-19T03:14:07Z 2038-01-19T03:14:07Z Snow Patrol-how to be dead I yern for something more tangible. I don't think I will ever get out of this alive. I miss so many things that it seems unreal to even wake up in the morning. I hate this feeling, I truly do...<br /><br />Why can't this be easy? Why do I have to make such a mockery of life? I don't understand why I can't be happy with the pleasures that life gives me and just leave it at that.<br /><br />"You will wait for me..."<br /><br />And I keep repeating the same words over and over and it gradually becomes so boring and lifeless. I need to find some sort of comfort that is reliable and will be there for me when I need it, not just when it is safe to be called upon. A lot of people just don't seem to understand and it's frustrating. I want someone to talk to but people get bored and don't want to hear what is wrong. They want to discuss matters that only entertain them. <br /><br />"It's a simple suggestion can you give me sometime.So just say yes or no. Why can't you shoulder the blame? Cause both my shoulders are heavy from the weight of us both."<br /><br />Lately I have become just so attached. I can't seem to let go of a lot of things and everytime that they seem to slightly slip away I just break down. Maybe I do need to see a shrink, but I honestly don't know what good it would do. I know I need someone to talk to but I hate how I feel that they are just listening to me because they are being paid to.